In your Eyes

In my eyes, 

I see nothing but regret, 

For the last two months of your life, 

I was gone, 

I left you, 

Abandoned you, 

It pierces my heart, 

Shallows my chest, 

Makes me writhe thinking 

I was doing my best, 

But in your eyes, 

Was I following my dreams? 

Providing for you by any means, 

Could you see that not a moment passed 

That I didn’t wish you in my arms, 

Could you feel the void inside me, 

Or did I create that darkness 

That now brings me to my knees, 

I felt you that night, 

Our final embrace, 

Our last goodbye, 

Although I can’t hold your face, 

I want you to know how much I try, 

I find solace  

In your spirit’s inert kindness, 

I know your heart is  

Incapable of hate, 

But for this one, 

I will never give myself a break, 

I think of you every day, 

Blow you a kiss every night, 

I see you amongst the stars 

Shining the most bright, 

And that is always when I know, 

We’ll be okay.