Knowing

I’ve decided

I’m breaking apart from what has gone on before  

You trapped me behind a door,

I found myself trapped in an economic, and racial divide  

But you can’t reach me on this side 

Your fingers have wrapped around my neck and 

Been between my legs. 

I throw up again  

You manipulated the situation  

And can’t give me an explanation

So, I’m refraining  

From engaging with the small minded

Small ego’d 

Because if you believed in yourself 

Maybe you would hate less 

Hurt less 

You are heartless 

Not sacrificial  

Beneficial  

Or even critical, 

You don’t matter to me now,  

I’ve severed our ties,  

You will not hold me in an emotional web 

You will not hold me in your bed  

You will not hold me again.