September/when I talk to myself

When will I be happy?  

I guess I’m happy right now.  

When will he hold me?  

But I want to explore myself.  

Feel justified by my wealth,  

But I fail under the potential rejection.

Still find myself longing for connection

Not just an erection  

I need that blessing  

Trying to learn to stay present,

One thing I’ve learned about chasing  

Is you’ll only be wasting  

Your time 

Trying to unwind the dynamics  

Of love